Saturday, February 13, 2010


March 7, 1985

Dear Ophelia,
"Hi. I'm doing a little better. A couple of weeks ago I got my hair spiked and tonight I got it cut a little more. Yesterday and today I missed track and I feel bad about it so from now on, I'm not missing anymore track. Please help me remember this resolution.

Well, I am turning mod but not for just the reasons on the previous page. I like the way mods dress. I'm just going to wear what I want and its such a relief to know that I don't have to worry about 'fashion' and stuff. I feel I can express myself more this way. I think its giving me more confidence and helping me to find myself. 

I hate phoniness but sometimes I find myself acting phony and I hate it. Please help me get rid of it. I just need to relax more and not concentrate so much on the way I act. Sometimes I try too hard to look relaxed and stuff but that makes me look phony.

I hope all this passes as I get older. I'll do my best!

Well I like Luke a lot now. I don't want him to know because I really don't think he likes me. I'm a freshman and he's a senior. I wish he did like me though. I don't like Mike anymore (except as a friend). I met some people awhile ago that I like (friends, I hope). 

Kristen is really nice. I mean she's someone I admire. She's confident, pretty and stuff. I also met Kim. I heard that she's mean after you get to know her, but I don't know her that well yet. I met Katie too. She's really outgoing and I like her a lot. I wish I could be better friends with these people. I kind of feel bad that I met them through Dan. 

Well, Chris and I kind of broke up. I didn't get along with him very well and besides, I like Luke better. I'm glad its over and I think Chris is too but I'm not sure. 

Guess what? I met a really cool guy named Robert. He's in college and living with Mike and Luke. He considers me a friend. I've been over to see him and been to a movie with him and some friends. I like him a lot as a friend. He's so buoyant and friendly.

In English, we're reading Great Expectations! Its a really good book, I love it. We're having a test on it tomorrow. I hope I do good. Well, I gotta go. Bye Ophelia. Your teenager, Jennifer. P.S. Thanks for listening."

I wish I could go back in time and help Jennifer. She is trying so hard, too hard. She will never relax if she keeps trying so hard!

I wish young people could see themselves through the eyes of their elders. They have no idea how good looking they are (no one with that much collagen can look bad!) or how much potential they have. I would love to "drive" a youth much like in the movie Avatar.

How awesome to have that young body and all those years ahead of you! Young people heal faster, recover faster, lose weight faster, build muscle faster. They are amazing! My avatar youth would be confident (and relaxed) and I would drive her to track practice every day! I wouldn't sweat the small stuff. I wouldn't get lost. I wouldn't abuse my body and I wouldn't cry about being skinny!

But therein lies the rub. Now that I know how to handle youth--it is gone :( (Okay, not too far gone, but it is slipping away....) I can't go back. I can't hijack an avatar teen. I see the new generation coming. They are like an army! Fresh and strong and full of dreams and insecurities--and they have to figure it all out on their own.
This saying is a truth: "Youth is wasted on the young!"

  Would you "drive" an Avatar if you could?

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