Jennifer wrote about her future career before--she was going to be a writer. Her fears and issues with writing made turning to another career pretty easy. She combined her love of animals, her natural curiosity and her desire to find meaning in life all into one new career--dolphin expert! She was excited by Dr. Lilly's research. He believed that eventually people would be able to talk to dolphins. Isn't this every little girls dream--to talk to animals! Well, it was Jennifer's!
Jennifer used to throw open her bedroom door and turn on the light hoping to catch her stuffed animals in the midst of playing a game. She just knew they were magical. She talked endlessly to her pets, willing them to understand her. Jennifer was always seeking, seeking, seeking. It went beyond just her pets, Jennifer was seeking connection.
Humans are not meant to live alone, to feel alone. I think we all seek connection to the point where it ruins us or saves us--just depends on which avenue we use to get there. Lack of connection is worse than an unhealthy connection--this is how so many of us humans get into trouble! Jennifer tried many avenues, God being the last one. Her personal relationship with God finally quenched her need for connection.
Jennifer's friend, age 15, sought connection and found it with Tom! Jennifer was amazed by her friend. She couldn't relate to two people choosing to have sex on purpose. She thought her friend was too young. Even Jennifer's ex-boyfriend, Chris, chose not to have sex and he was a high school senior! Jennifer was a weird combination of innocent and knowledgeable from her experience at Whale Park. Her brain had shut down. Her body understood life better than her brain did--if that makes any sense! She was still just a little girl with a dream of speaking to animals!